On our baby girl's first birthday I went into a rehab program. This was on November 27, 1989. I've been clean and sober ever since. After a few years of sobriety I still had this feeling that something was missing. I tried to fill that hole with work. I spent years working long hours, seven days a week. Not realizing I was replacing one crutch with another. I gave my family stuff, thinking that would make them happy, when all they wanted all along was something I was still unable to give. Me. Finally in 2005 I made a complete surrender and accepted Jesus Christ as my personal Savior. That's what has been missing in my life all along. That hole I felt inside is now filled by Him. This is the way it was always intended to be. All the glory is to God. Jesus is the way. April, 2007 |
The way I felt, if somebody pulled the trigger, they would have been doing me a favor. Somehow the good Lord kept me alive and I ended up back in my home town. He was about to put somebody else in my life that would get my attention. We both loved the same things, riding motorcycles, partying and scrapping. Somehow we survived the courtship and got married. The good Lord saw fit to bless our marriage with a beautiful baby girl and things were about to change drastically. When my wife found out she was pregnant, she changed, she got responsible and she stopped partying. I got worse. My partying continued until our daughter was a year old. My wife wasn't going to put up with my crap anymore and called me on it. This woman had just called my bluff. Now what am I going to do. |
time of innocence. My childhood was a place of abuse, fear and isolation. I was a shy, sensitive kid. I learned how to stuff these feelings down, so nobody could hurt me anymore. It seemed obvious to me, if I were to survive, I had to be tough. By the time I was a teen, I was rebellious and always on the edge. This attitude of "do it to them before they do it to you" was now my way of life. I was married and a father of a beautiful baby girl by the time I was nineteen. By the time I was twenty- six that marriage was over. My drug and alcohol abuse had escalated, trying to kill the pain. For the next three years I tried geographic changes. If the heat was on, if relationships went bad, if people got too close, I would just pack up and move on. No matter how far I moved, it wasn't far enough. All my garbage went with me. The loneliness I felt when I tried to fall asleep at night was eating me up from the inside. |
| Testimony of Gary Boissonneault Heaven's Saint Windsor Chapter |
| Written by: Gary Boissonneault |
God's own chosen ones (His own picked representatives), [who are] purified and holy and well-beloved [by God Himself, by putting on behavior marked by] tenderhearted pity and mercy, kind feeling, a lowly opinion of yourselves, gentle ways, [and] patience [which is tireless and long- suffering, and has the power to endure whatever comes, with good temper]. |
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