| Testimony By: Peter Baker Heaven's Saint Windsor Chapter |
and my verbal abuse to the judge, I was given 5 year indefinite sentence to the Kingsclear Institution for young offenders. I did my time and when I got out at 16 the only thing that I had learned was - don't get caught...... and I didn't, for awhile. At 18, my older brother introduced me to his "buddy "Poncho". He was a member of the 'Sons of Satan' bike club. He took an instant liking to me and that is when my criminal life stepped up a notch. I began dealing drugs and doing a lot more drugs which is when my life became a blur. I was in over my head and I knew it. I also started doing more time and when I got out I knew things had to change. I spent the next couple of years trying to straighten out. I would be in and out of rehab but I just couldn't break my habits. I also spent the next couple of years in and out of jail. Than I met my wife. She was a nice girl but I was still messed up. We ended up living together and after 3 years she couldn't take anymore of my abuse and my lifestyle and she kicked me out. While I was out one night at a bar, I got into a fight. It didn't turn out the way that I thought that it should have. I was embarrassed so I went and got my gun. I looked half that night for this guy and I couldn't find him. In my twisted stupper, I went to my girlfriend's house (now my wife) to see her and the kids for what I thought was the last time. When I got there I was in for a big surprise because while I had been gone she had gone to church and become a born again Christian. And I had become more desperate and hopeless. As she was cleaning me up (I had a broken nose) I really noticed a change in her. She said "Peter what are you doing with your life?" |
fairly normal. I had 2 brothers and 3 sisters. My mother was a stay at home mom and my father worked with the Coast Guard. I don't have many memories of my father because he was rarely home and when he was home, he would sleep and then go out with his friends and drink. By the time he got home, we were in bed but I thought that was how it was supposed to be and we loved him anyway. As a kid, I was really skinny and because of that, other kids at school and in our neighborhood, would pick on me. So I spent a lot of time running to get away from them. At the age of 12, my father sat all of us down at the kitchen table and told us that he was moving out. This was a huge shock as we had no idea what was going on. My life was forever changed. I was hurt, confused and I became very angry. From that day forward, I stopped running. I quickly learned that I could make others run and that I wasn't as weak as I thought. This made me realize that I could get respect from others. At 13, 1had my first drink and that made me feel powerful and in control. Then I discovered drugs and I liked it. All of it! It took away all the pain. Little did I realize that it took away a lot more than that. It took away all of my emotions except one: Anger! I began breaking all the rules. At 14, 1stole my first car. At 14, 1had a lot of firsts with not too many of them being good. Within 6 months I had been in trouble with the law several times and my probation officer has no choice but to give up on me. Finally I got my first sentence to do jail time. I had gotten caught by an undercover officer as I was coming back from the bootleggers and I assaulted him. |
confused mess and I didn't know how to stop it. She told me that if I gave my life to Jesus that he would fix it and make it right. For the first time in my life I actually felt that maybe, just maybe, this might help. Whatever this is! The God that I knew was a God who only wanted to punish me for sins and I wanted nothing to do with that God. I thought "could there be more to this?" As a last ditch effort I agreed to go to church with her and the kids the next morning. I had no idea of what to expect because the only church that I knew was dead and very boring. When I got there I realized that it was not at all like I had expected. The people were very friendly and welcomed me with open arms. It was if they glowed. Then the pastor told me about how Jesus loved me and died for me so that I could be forgiven, unconditionally. For the first time in my life, I felt what I now know to be the true spirit of God touch me in a way that caused me to have such deep remorse for all that I had done. All I could do was cry uncontrollably. If you knew me - that was a big deal because I truly believed that 'men don't cry' . I answered the preachers' altar call and received Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour. At that moment, all guilt and shame left me and a great peace came over me. I felt truly changed. To my surprise, He did what no rehab or counselling or anger management could ever do. He delivered me from alcohol and drugs, instantly. From day to day, He is continually changing my life for the better. And the more I get to know him, the more I love him because he first loved me and because of that I am forever changed. Thank you Jesus!! |
| Written By: Peter Baker |
| Heaven's Saints M/M Windsor Ontario Canada |
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